Today I realized that while I have written interviews with my characters, I have not posted an entry purely from one of my characters. And so today I would like to rectify that situation.
Let me introduce you to Mary Jane….yep just plain old Mary Jane. That’s her name and she’s proud of it. She’s an orphan in contemporary times who’s been forced into some pretty rough conditions. And this is the entry that brought her to life.
Sometimes, life is cruel.
That concept had been shoved down my throat. Painful. Raw. Stinging as I swallowed back all life shoved at me.
Sometimes, life pushes you down. Sometimes, life tramples your dreams. And yet, you are expected to move on. Stand up. Brush off the dirt. Breathe. Keep living.
Life teaches you to dream. But it also warns you to play it safe. To always have a backup plan. Don’t dream too big. Don’t dare hope for the seemingly unachievable. Stick with the well-known. Be content with the familiar.
That lesson was one I’d been forced to learn. And one I had since memorized. Yes, sometimes life is cruel. But love is even crueler. I’d dare to love. I’d taken that gamble and I’d lost. Lost more than I’d ever care to admit.
And yet, you have to stand up. Breathe. Keep living. But breathing is difficult. And living even more difficult. As my world continues to spiral deeper and deeper continually twisting out of my control breathing becomes nearly impossible.
Life has said I’m not good enough and pushed me down every time I attempt to stand. And not once has anybody ever offered to help me stand. No in life, you have to find the strength to stand without any help. That lesson I learned quickly.
Courage. Blind faith more like it. Blindly believing that your courage won’t be in vain and that by some miracle you will be rewarded for daring to dream. Now that’s the mark of a fool.
Courage. My dad had courage. Dreams. My dad had dreams too. But he had still died. His courage hadn’t been enough to save him. Frankly, I lacked his courage. Something I took comfort in. My dad’s courage got him killed. And as difficult as breathing is, I don’t fancy dying anytime soon.
And that's all for now! Hope you enjoyed it.