Thursday, June 30, 2011

Facing your fears...again

One thing you probably don't want to know about me, but get to know anyway. I have an intense fear of failure and of rejection.

One of the hardest things for me is to share my writing, especially with those I know and love. It takes guts. I am more comfortable letting perfect strangers see my writing. I've let my mother read my writing, and a very close friend. I don't think he realizes how hard it was for me to share my writing.

The point is that I think sometimes I purposely put of editing a novel, because I don't want to face that fear of failure and of rejection. I've decided I'm going to make a promise to myself, by the end of the year I will be actively pursuing my dream. I will be trying to get a novel published and I will actively pursue the publication process. I will have a novel ready to be submitted by the end of the year. That is my new goal. I will work hard on my writing. I want to make writing my career and I need to take it seriously.

So this is me saying that I'm going to work harder and saying so publicly. That way somebody will hopefully call me on it.

Here's to conquering your fears!

One hectic month....

I have a knack of taking on more than I can handle. I push myself too hard until I’m literally at my breaking point. That’s where I’m at right now.

People constantly remind me that it’s not requisite that I run faster than I am able, but I always want to be three steps ahead of where I’m currently at.

The result of this tendency is that I’m working about 60 hours a week out in the sun, getting dehydrated, and just plain worn out. I come home exhausted and lack energy to do much of anything.

But I finally realized that after a month of this insanity, that I need to take more time for myself and so I promise I will blog more frequently again. I think oh I should post a blog post today and then either get busy or else I fall asleep. But this month I will do better. Forgive me for my hectic month.

I promise I will try to balance my time better. I will focus more on my writing and reading. I’m back! Sorry for the lack of posting.

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

To-Read Tuesday...Exile

Today my To-Read novel is Exile by Anne Osterlund. Exile is the second in her Aurelia series. Aurelia is a YA fantasy…but one that doesn’t include magic. If you read her blog, you’ll find she’s quite passionate on that issue.
Aurelia was the crown princess, but she didn’t want to be one. In the first novel, somebody is determined to kill her and nobody knows who is behind it or why.  Crown Princess Aurelia stands in the face of exile. Behind her are those who tried to kill her. In front of her are the entire kingdom and  Robert--the friend she can't help but fall in love with. Aurelia may finally be living her dream...but danger isn't far behind when Aurelia and Robert are betrayed by the very guards assigned to protect her. 
I must confess that I read Anne Osterlund’s blog and feel attached to her characters, novels, and plots. I’m not unbiased by any form of the word. So take that into consideration if you want to read this book.
I’ve read every single one of Osterlund’s novels and have loved them all. Her novel Academy 7 is also an incredible read. I read it over four-five months ago. It’s sci-fi, something that I’m typically not really interested in, but there are a few exceptions such as Academy 7.
Osterlund is an upcoming star that I’ll definitely keep my eye on. She has an entertaining blog, impeccable taste in books, and a great writing style.  If you’re looking for entertainment, read her blog or her novels. If you’re looking for a good read, add her as a friend on goodreads. You won’t be disappointed.
This sounds sales pitchy and for that I apologize, but this truly is my opinion. Take it for what it’s worth. :)

Monday, June 13, 2011

Monday Manifestos...Alana Monroe

For today's Monday Manifestos post I'm going to share a journal entry from my character Alana Monroe. Alana is the heroine of my longstanding forever working on novel, The Chosen One.  I hope you enjoy it.

Some people are peacemakers, some people are leaders, and some people are just born troublemakers. I was born a troublemaker. It’s not intentional. I don’t mean to ruin everything. It’s just that whenever I am around strange things happen. Things that probably shouldn’t happen actually.

I was just born a freak…I suppose that has to be somebody’s lot in life, right? I suppose that after seventeen years it shouldn’t bother me anymore, but being strange gets really old really quickly. Being able to hear people’s thoughts isn’t normal. People have tried to classify me. Suffers from severe paranoia, plagued with an overactive imagination, attention starved. The list could go on and on.

I wasn’t crazy. I know that crazy people typically don’t know that their crazy, but I promise you I’m not crazy. I’m just different than everybody else. There have been too many coincidences for me to believe that I’m making this up. This is reality. I’m different, but I’m not delusional.

I suppose this isn’t a normal journal entry, but that matches the rest of my life. The more abnormal, the better seems to be my motto in life. Not a motto I chose or one that I particularly like, but what can I do?

I probably should have started this entry by stating my name, but it’s too late to fix that now. Most likely I’m going to end up throwing this away anyway. I don’t want to leave a written record behind me. I don’t want to make my thoughts public. If anything, I’d rather just be invisible. I’d rather have nobody even know I existed. I’ve almost got my wish too. Most people don’t notice me.

I just wanted to ramble into the void, the vast emptiness that surrounds me. Goodbye for now.

See you tomorrow for this week's To-Read Tuesday.

Sunday, June 12, 2011

Poetry Circle...Robert Frost

Today I would like to share one of my favorite poets with you, that is  Robert Frost.

My favorite of his  is The Road Not Taken, by Robert Frost. I know it’s overused and clich├ęd, but I still love it. I’d like to share it with you.

The Road Not Taken

Isn't this simply a gorgeous photo? I love it.
Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

This poem has always resonated within me. I have always loved this poem. I love the message it contains and I also absolutely adore the imagery. It's a great poem.

I've also recently discovered Bond and Free. I love this poem as well.

Love has earth to which she clings  
With hills and circling arms about—  
Wall within wall to shut fear out.  
But Thought has need of no such things,  
For Thought has a pair of dauntless wings.
On snow and sand and turf, I see  
Where Love has left a printed trace  
With straining in the world’s embrace.  
And such is Love and glad to be.  
But Thought has shaken his ankles free.
Thought cleaves the interstellar gloom  
And sits in Sirius’ disc all night,  
Till day makes him retrace his flight,  
With smell of burning on every plume,  
Back past the sun to an earthly room.
His gains in heaven are what they are.  
Yet some say Love by being thrall  
And simply staying possesses all  
In several beauty that Thought fares far  
To find fused in another star. 
I love this poem. Robert Frost is a great poet. I could share his poems for hours, but I'll share one more with you.

Fire and Ice

Some say the world will end in fire
Some say ice.
From what I've tasted of desire
I hold with those who favor fire.
But if I had to perish twice,
I think I know enough of hate
To say that for destruction ice
Is also great
and would suffice.

I hope you enjoyed these poems as much as I do.

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

Whimsical Wednesdays...Notebooks

Well it's Whimsical Wendesday again, but first I must apologize for not posting in forever. :( Let's just say work has kept me busy to say the least. I've worked 25 hours in three to some that may not be a lot, but when you're working out in the sun all day that's tough on your body. I've been insanely tired as of late.

Anyway for today's Whimsical Wednesday post I'm going to talk about writing (...big surprise there, right?) in the form of notebooks that is.

To put it simply: I love obsessed with them actually. I ask for one every single holiday and I get one every time I can justify buying one. I like assigning different notebooks for different things. One notebook for writer's journal, one for cool names I hear or think of, one for plotting, one for actual writing.

I went to the store and saw twenty notebooks that I wanted. That’s why I never go down the school supplies aisle unless I absolutely have to. It’s a hazard. Some people can’t see shoes without having to buy them, for me it’s notebooks. If I see a notebook, I have to get it.

I know that computers help the writing process immensely and I love them. I use computers once I have a story idea that’s kicked off and I’ve reached a few thousand words, but for the first few thousand words I love using my notebook. I love the way I feel when my hand flies across the paper. There’s just something more intimate about using a notebook than a computer.

Notebooks are my guilty pleasure in life. I absolutely love them. If you're having writer's block, I always find it helpful to leave the computer and start writing on a notebook. But then again, maybe that's just me.
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